Creativity

When I was first diagnosed bipolar, I sought out other bipolar folks on the internet, looking for kindred spirits. However, I quickly discovered that apart from occassional episodes when we were extremely ill, the only thing we shared was a diagnosis. We all had very different personalities and lives.

But I later realised that one common attribute often found among bipolars is creativity. Many have an artistic talent such as sculpting, writing, painting etc.

For me it's music. I have never had any formal training I just kinda muddle through. I've taught myself to play and I write and record songs in my little home studio. Although these are usually upbeat compositions, I thought I would include something related to my illness.

When I first went mad I believed that the doctors had physically altered my brain and my neural pathways were now all mixed up and out of alignment. I thought if I went back to the place I grew up and exposed my optic nerve to the images of childhood then I would be cured. I drove 100 miles, only to find the buildings all demolished and even the street was gone. I felt hopeless, my hope of being cured was gone. I went home dejected and wrote and recorded "The Road". I was still very psychotic at the time so it's a very basic simple recording. Click on the play button if you want to listen to it...

I've recently done some more recording. One of the tracks is a kind of bipolar blues called Never Come Back Again...